Mindset

Is it just me, or does it feel like there's a growing sense of apathy in the world these days? Half-heartedness. Lukewarmness. Whatever you want to call it. You order a meal at a restaurant, and it arrives cold—with barely a smile and an expectation of a high tip. Maybe I'm snobby. Maybe I'm just being ungrateful. But do you ever feel like people are dragging their feet?

Because it suggests something uncomfortable: Anger is not always uncontrollable. Sometimes anger is a performance. A strategy. A form of intimidation. A way of forcing another person to feel the heat that is burning inside of us.

Have you ever felt trapped in a life you once prayed for? Recently, I’ve been watching videos about the life of Michael Jackson. It’s a bit of an odd obsession—one I know will eventually pass. But like most things we feel drawn to, there’s usually a reason we want to understand them more deeply.

So why does missing out feel dangerous? Painful? Like a threat? Because fear is tied to belief. If we believe we want something other than what we currently have, we create tension. And that tension often shows up as fear. The good news? Beliefs can be challenged. They can even be changed entirely.

In recent years, I have simultaneously gained an appreciation and loathing for modern day politics. I started to notice patterns in different types of belief systems. This pattern I noticed is that whatever belief system you abide by – there is always some form of “censorship” involved.

Does anyone else share the irrational fear that you might see someone you know when you are running your daily errands? Dun dun dun. Lately, I have been noticing that every time I go out in public – I suddenly become worried. It’s funny because as I have grown older my fear keeps growing. I used to be so carefree and open to spontaneous conversation. Now here I am – lacking confidence. It could be the fact that I live in a small town so the likelihood that I will see someone